lunaesteria:

modern witches: 

• we somehow found our love for the occult and decided we wanted to dive in head first, and then didn’t realize where to start
• “is this a good one?” we say as we skim through the tiny metaphysical section at our local bookstore, and walk out with a mishmash of titles from various authors, all with conflicting opinions 
• we jot down notes in old school notebooks because that leather grimoire we found online was too expensive
• we ditched the books we read over and over again and turned to the internet, hungry for hidden knowledge
• we all stumbled upon spellsofmagic.com and tried to do the unthinkable before realizing that it wasn’t working and got discouraged
• we realized that *gasp* you can write your own spells, but how? 
• we spent hours compiling correspondences for every herb and spice in our kitchen pantry, and dug through boxes to find our old crystal or seashell collection from when we were kids thinking “i could probably use these for… something”
• we spent too much money on candles and incense before realizing we could get them cheaper online
• we practiced drawing sigils and symbols to make them perfect before crumpling up the paper and starting all over
• we learned to go outside and look at the moon to see what phase it was in and how we could possibly use that to our advantage 
• “what cardinal direction was for fire again? south?” we went back to the drawing board, digging through our notes to find the section in which we wrote down the information before giving up and doing a quick google search instead
• we set up wiccan altars because we didn’t know that there was anything else out there at first
• we learned about intent, and made sure that we were careful to stir our tea or coffee in one direction or the other to set the mood for the day
• we would squint at bottles of body wash in the shower to find the ingredients and quickly figure out how to use them for magick: “jasmine and lavender? i think that’s good for peace or something”
• we say little incantations when we cook dinner, or pour food for our pets – “bunny, you are happy and healthy. enjoy!”

every witch has gone through their own version of uncertainty and unknowing when they first started practicing. everyone’s path is different, and the situations leading up to our current state, made us the witches we are today. your path is yours, and yours alone. don’t let anyone take that from you.